Closer on a Friday night

Wassup people! I am at home at 9:30, single and available, and in my own opinion, a decent catch, but alas, alone. Definitely my own shortcoming, I'm too picky. So realizing this tonight, I decided to throw on a classic that for some reason speaks to how I think most people see the concept of love. Closer, staring Jude Law, Julia Roberts, Clive Owen, and Natalie Portman is a arrow to the soul that shows you almost in a shakespearian tragic sort of way, how love works. The concept that you can love two people at once, but not really. How you can "fancy" someone yet leave them all at once. How you want to hurt someone that causes so much pain to you. In fact, it wraps it up in the scene where Clive and Julia have the breakup speech and asks the whole male thing: Is he better? That's truly how we think, amongst many things, the speech where we ask all the questions in the world yet nothing makes sense to us. How the woman asks if they can still hold on to some semblance of the relationship. Classic line: What does it taste like? It tastes like you, but sweeter. The movie is raw and it's painful, but captures that part of life that is so true, our concept of fidelity and love can be so twisted, yet at it's simplest form we all desire someone to desire us, want us, and wish that we would never leave. Check is some time if you can stand raw truth and emotions. I'm out on friday night. Peace......

amongst the chaos....inner thoughts reign

Wassup people? I'm currently slacking from a gang of work due on Thurs. but today has been a day of many thoughts on many subjects and many people, so if you can't get if off the mind. First and foremost, single life is a mixed bag. It's interesting meeting new people and getting different perspectives about so many things, but the the negative side is you meet new people. Naw, seriously, dealing with people teaches you patience and just hearing how things progress in other's lives has helped me to slowly follow others examples and do the right thing like Spike once told us. The major thing I've learned from the past couple years is people have so many sides that it takes a good amount of time to even scratch the surface. On the back of the thought, I think that you can know someone for years and still learn something new about them. From a purely positive standpoint, that's exciting. The thought of true growth and desire to find out where one fits in this life is assuring to see in others. I think of all the people I know and I genuinely hope that they all find out more about their path and themselves and hopefully share it with me. Growth is a beautiful thing, so if you're doing so, share it with me. If you have a side I don't know, share it with me (within reason, I'm a shoulder, but I'm not a therapist).

On a music note, check the new Janet. That joint is hot. I'm also feeling Consequence (check the track with John Legend, it's fiyah), Erykah B's new one, and my man Pete Rock laying the beats on a new LP. Peace to all and remember get at somebody with what you're figuring out and save the rest of us some time and pain.....

1st post of 08: appreciate what you have before it's gone

What's up people! This first post of the year is dedicated to my sister, since I think she's the only one who consistently checks this to see if I've updated it. Love ya, Steph.....

So with the start of a new year, a month already done, and Valentine's coming up, I sense a hint of love in the air. People tend to want to find love in a new year if they are alone and when Valentine's comes around, folks desire it a little more. However, I got to stress one thing, be sure you're ready for the right person. In this day of instant everything at our fingertips, we expect love to be the same and tailor made to fit what we want, instead of realizing what is good for us. We must all realize that looking for love shouldn't involve looking back, with the number of people in this world, there must be literally thousands that we all can fall in love with and enough in common to make it work. I recently read someone's blog saying that she didn't believe in marriage, but she believed in soulmates. I was confused by this, because I would think if a woman were MY soulmate, I would want to let the world know for life that she was the person meant for me and me for her.

I guess my point is we have this sense of how love should be and that we deserve it right now, but I'm realizing you have to love yourself first. So many times in the past I wanted someone there with me because I didn't want to focus on myself. I had to learn that the hard way a few times. I wanted love when I saw others had it, even though I wasn't ready. I wanted love when those I tried it with found it with someone else. There are so many reasons why we search for it, but the only reason we should have in our heads is I want love because I want to sacrifice all my pride, fear, doubt, anger and dedicate my life to making someone else's life the best that it can be. How often do we think of wanting love that doesn't include a reason involving our wants? Focus on fulfilling the wants of someone else and finding someone who shares the same sentiment. And just be patient, He started a good work in you, He's faithful to complete it. I'm out.......pEaCe.....