help restore my faith

Wassup, readers? Hope this finds you well because it's not for me right now. Gotta say now, faith in women is pretty low right now. I'm not going into the details, but let's just say that once again, someone promised something and once again was lying. I used to defend you, ladies, when you said men didn't know what they wanted, lied to get what they do want, and were unsure about who they wanted to be with. Well, guess what, no longer. I've come to the conclusion that too many women are in the same place. I've tried respectful, decent, caring, understanding, romantic, supportive, and honest, but these don't work. A woman is quick to take advantage of this just as fast as a man is of a woman. So what's the use? Ladies, let me know that you're out there somewhere with a clear understanding of what it really takes to have a good man. I'm not complete, but my efforts are there and it's frustrating trying to be something better than that basic human nature but coming across who strive not to exceed that. I'm at a loss....wonder if the monestary is still an option....Peace...

80 things (these lists are addictive)

80 Things You Might Not Know About Me

80 things you might not know about me.
Erase my answers, fill in your own, and repost.

1. What is your middle name? W***** (only very close people know this)
2. How big is your bed? Queen
3. What are you listening to right now? Robin Thicke "Lost Without U" (get the album, please)
4. What are the last 4 digits in your cellphone number? 3035
5. What was the last thing you ate? Yoghurt and cereal
6. Last person you hugged? C.C.

7. How is the weather right now?
63 degrees and mostly clear (gotta love Weather Channel Desktop)

8. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
Ernesto my lil brother from another mother

9. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
Teeth/smile

10. Favorite type of food? Sushi

11. Do you want children? Definitely
12. Do you get high? only on Jesus
13. Ever get so drunk you don't remember the entire night?
not so much, that's just scary
14. Hair color? Black
15. Eye color? Brown
16. Do you wear eye contacts? most of the time
17. Favorite holiday? Christmas

18. Favorite Season? Fall
19. Have you ever cried over a girl/boy? Umm, maybe
20. Last Movie you Watched? Butterfly Effect
29. What books are you reading? Heartbreaking work of Staggering Genius and Pilgrim's progress
30. Piercings? None, too straight laced

31. Favorite Movie? Brown Sugar

32. Favorite college football Team? Tennessee go Vols!

33. What were you doing before filling this out? watching TV and catching up on emails

34. Any pets? had several none now :o(

35. AIM? Too much
36. Dogs or cats? Both have their appeal

38. Favorite Flower? Gotta say daffodils

40. Have you ever loved someone? Of course
41. Who would you like to see right now? she knows who she is
43. Have you ever fired a gun? Yes

44. Do you like to travel by plane? Only in the exit aisle, my long legs need room

45. Right-handed or Left-handed? LEFT BABY! 9% of the world son!
46. If you could go to any place right now where would it be? This island meadow in the south pacific I once saw in a national geographic book when I was like 10
48. Are you missing someone? always

49. Do you have a tattoo? No
50. Do you still watch cartoons on Saturday mornings? if I can catch TMNT

51. Are you hiding something from someone? Nope, I'm an open book
52. Are you under 50? yeah, if you're not, you're too daggone old to be writing these answers

53. WHAT IS THE WALLPAPER ON YOUR CELLPHONE? a river in paradise

54. DID YOU GET ENOUGH SLEEP LAST NIGHT? Yes
55. FIRST THING YOU THOUGHT ABOUT THIS MORNING? Dag I gotta go to class...

56. WHAT DO YOU HAVE HANDY AT YOUR BEDSIDE? alarm, lamp, Bible


57. GRILLED OR FRIED? Grilled
59. WHAT MAKES YOU UNIQUE? I'm a man who's willing to set aside my own desires for His will

60. ARE YOU AFRAID OF THE DARK?
No

61. FAVORITE HANGOUT? hmmm, the house

62. 3 THINGS YOU CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT? books, my car, my fam
63. FIRST THING YOU WILL BUY IF GIVEN 1 BILLION DOLLARS?
2 houses one for me and one for my parents
64. FAVORITE SONG? too many to choose but for the moment "You" by Raheem DeVaughn

65. WHAT ARE YOU AFRAID OF? wasting time

66. ARE YOU A GIVER OR TAKER? Both
67. WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES? B, smooth operator, pumpkin head, Boy

68. WHAT IS YOUR DAD'S MIDDLE NAME? William

69. WHATS YOUR MOTHERS MIDDLE NAME? Annette

70. STUCK ON A DESERTED ISLAND & COULD ONLY BRING ONE THING?
The Word
71. FAVORITE T.V. COMMERCIAL? right now it's the oreo pie for Domino's the one with the beard, hilarious
72. WHO'S YOUR CELL PHONE PROVIDER? Verizon
73. FIRST THING YOU'LL SAVE IN A FIRE? my computer
74. Favorite color? Green

75. WHAT ARE THREE THINGS YOU ALWAYS BRING WITH YOU?
wallet, cellie, Palm Pilot
76. WHAT DID YOU WANNA BE WHEN YOU WERE A KID?
A scientist
77. WHAT DO YOU USUALLY DO WHEN THE CLOCK TURNS?
wonder how much longer will it keep doing that?
78. THE COLOR OF YOUR BEDSHEET? Dark blue
79. WHO DO U WANT TO MEET?
God,Haile Selassie I, my great grandmother
80. What is the last thing you think before going to bed? how much sleep can I get if I go to bed now?

1. Cigarettes: expensive
2. Sex: huh?
3. Relationship: trying
4. Your Last Ex: lesson
5. Power rangers: gay
7. Crack: Tyrone Biggums
8. Food: weakness
9. The President: when is re-election?
10. War: what is it good for?
11. Cars: Infinity
12. Gas Prices: bananas
13. Halloween: almost my birthday
14. Bon Jovi: wack
15. Religion: taken too seriously and yet missing the point
16. MySpace: addictive
17. Worst fear: heights
18. Marriage: God willing
19. Paris Hilton: waste of money
20. Brunettes: delic
21. Redheads: depends
22: Politics: republicrats different day same ish...
23: Pass the time: reading
24. One night stands: overrated
25: Cell Phone: hate and love it all at once
26: Pet Peeves: the word conversate
27: Pixie Stix: kid crack

28: Vanilla Ice cream:slap a brownie and chocolate syrup you got the best
29: Porta Potties: never
30: High school: most overated time of your life
31. Pajamas: nahhhh
32. Cuddle: heaven
33. Woods: forts
34. Wet Socks: nails on a chalkboard
35. Pictures: the song 3x5 John Mayer

Miss or Mrs. Emcee

What's up people? Well, personal issues goin' on in the background so all that know how to pray, please do so. As always I stay thinking, so I decided the next entry will be on a recent mound of mind clay: the lady emcee. A newly made freind inspired the thought, her passion being the art of lyricism. Unfortunately, I take a look out there in the game and I see a lack of stellar female emcees out there. I feel disturbed at honestly admitting the only one on top of her game is Lil Kim. Maybe it's a reverse effect, the worse your personal life gets, the better your music gets. The last album was.....whew, this is tough to admit, but really good. Was it on the order of Black Reign by the all time queen of hip hop, Dana Owens, or you may know her as Queen Latifah? Not at all, but I have to give credit where credit is due. Thoughts switch to the Queen and as much as it shows my age, I'm going to say the jazz album she dropped was phat. (Yes, I know, I'm a 50 year old in a 27 year old body, I've accepted it and am comfortable with it.) But even hearing the Queen sing Lush Life, a part of me realizes that I'm aging slowly. The ultimate female royalty of hip hop in my day (even saying that phrase makes me reach for the Geritol) is now singing lounge music and as Q-Tip and Busta asked who can old the torch? No one on the female side in the industry now, but she's out there. Some unsung, 150 bars per minute kind of sista coming with lyrical genius. Where are you, my dear, hurry up and get here.......Peace.....