growing up or growing old, how long does it take?

It's been a minute so I apologize. Figure it's a jazz/emo rock kind of day with the cloudy Sunday afternoon so I'm quite pensive today. It's been a real busy week so I had little time to think about things, which for me is sometimes a good thing. I had to do a state of the soul address last night on a few things. After a few discussions with different people this week, it's become apparent that growing up is hard to do. The first on everyone's list of accomplishments: patience. Been guilty so many times of wanting what I want when I want it. I just want to have a dream and I see my life six months from now to see where I stand with all aspects of my life so I can know I'm making the right decisions now. Unfortunately, we don't have that luxury, but I have started to learn the painful lesson of enjoying the moment. Realize that right now, things are a blessing and I the people in my life for all their weaknesses and areas of growth, they are bringing to my life something that truly no one else could because they are just who I need to grow and be encouraged. I can only hope they feel the same way. The crux of the problem is me, suprise. It's hard to mature and put away old silly thoughts and emotions that came out of fear of people and the future. Old habits die hard when they are formed from years of trusting with eyes wide shut and walking into situations that had bad signs from the jump. Question is, how do you know bad signs from signs that are areas of growth in someone? How do you know things will get better and that trust will build and remain? Well, since I can't and I can't shut people out completely, I've learned to enjoy the day. Enjoy the moment and write on it when possible. Embrace life for what it is now, not for what it could be......sometimes things are a little too true to say all the time......I'm out.